Author's Note: I wrote this poem after getting a 71% on one of my math quizzes, after the 4th time I had taken it. I wanted to cry, scream, swear, and throw my computer at a wall. All at the same time. That's what failure does to you, so I composed myself, closed Aleks (the math program) and screamed into my pillow. After freaking out for a little while longer I wrote this poem, . It seems harsh, but it's what failure feels like.
A warm happiness
of normality
spreads throughout my body
to the tips of my fingers
and the ends of my toes
i am oblivious
i stare at the screen
with a hopeful expression
it loads
i see it
but i don’t believe it
then something clicks
the gears start to turn
i failed
my insides start to tighten
it tightens around my heart
which is ready to pop
I am holding back tears
my head starts to hurt
a million thoughts
racing around
all at once
something breaks
tears start to stream gently
down my face
leaving a trail of wetness across my cheek
and down my chin
failure
it is a horrid emotion
it does not let you down
gently
it throws you to the ground
the hard
cold
concrete ground
laughing as your bones crack
and you scream in agony
failure lives on your pain
it watches you
waiting to pounce
when you least expect it
failure also holds on
tight
digging it’s jagged claws
into your memory
it will not let go easily
defeat
it goes hand and hand with failure
but you must not admit defeat
or failure will never leave
ever
hold your head up
and get back in the ring
you’re not done yet
you can’t be
if you give in
failure wins
it will consume your life
and everything you love
it is a tornado
sucking up everything in it’s path
and leaving disaster behind
a mess of
tortured feelings
that have been stamped on
and left to die
you must be strong
and stand up to failure
there’s one way
you have to smile
and try again
and again
don’t let failure come in
it will come knocking
many a times
but let it stand outside
in the rain of despair
while you stay in
happy
canfident
and ready to take on every challenge
head first
I love this! Although I thought it was going to end bad, I guess it's only right to end it happy. It definitively shows your hard work through the words that say exactly how you're feeling. The description of the emotions is so powerful I feel like I'm being blasted by them. Great job! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks X3 I was in mental breakdown mode when I wrote this XD
ReplyDeleteWhoa cool. I love how you got this idea from an aleks quiz. Awesome Ashy! :D (In one of the lines, should it say "Left to die"?, because you wrote "dry")
ReplyDeleteOh that's a good idea thanks :D (and thank-you, aleks gets some strong emotions out of me -_-;)
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